His Guardian. His Angel.

The help for me it came too late

I couldnt help myself.

But I can help him

Be his angel

His guardian

Watching him and sending love from above

That goes right in his body

Making its ways through his veins

Until it reaches his heart

His eyes will light up

And you'll see it'll get easier

The pain will fade

And i'll know you'll be safe

And maybe one day

Hopefully not too soon

We will meet again

Meet again in a paradise we both could only dream of

The paradise Peter Pan took his friends on an adventure

The paradise where you and me will be brought back to life

Until then I'm telling you to hush and don't you cry

I was begging for another try

But now I see you're doing well

Moving on from what we've had

I want you back but it doesn't work

So i just have to find another way for you to hear these words

My love for you will never fade

The laughs, the cries, it all will stay

Forever in my heart i'll carry you

This is for the one who used to say ' I love you too '

Come back.

Move on.

I tried to move on 

move on from the past

a new beginning

with a new start

With you.

With you.

Now I'm here 

standing in the rain

so you can't see the tears running down from my face

They're screaming for you

For you.

I tried to move on

I catched you from your fall

I reached for your hand

But you didn't take it.

Forget the past.

You didn't

Face the future.

You didn't

I'm facing it.

Without you.

Without you.

It's all my fault?

I tell you it isn't

I've done some bad things but you told me to forget it.

I forgot but you didn't.

Why didn't you tell me.

Tell me it hurts.

I would've taken the pain from you.

From you.

But it's over and all that's left are the good memories you try to remember.

Where have they been.

They're so far away.

It's starting to fade.
The good memories of you.

Of you.

Be who YOU want to be

We're living in a world where society tells you you're not good enough.

We live in a world where we look up to the wrong people.

Instead of looking up to people whose characters and personalities shine brighter than the sun,

we look up to those who just look good from the out.

I am someone who doesn't care what other people think about me.

If they like me or not, thats fine.

You can't make everyone happy.

But I am also that kind of person who hates to disappoint the people you love or you feel responsible for.

But that doesn't mean that I am not myself.

I know alot of people who are different around other people.

If someone doesn't accept you the way you are then tell him or her there's the door...it's a metaphor..but if there really is a door then go ahead and show 'em!

I love this quote.

If you want to be happy and live a life full of freedom...you have to be who you really are.

Be happy with yourself.

No one is perfect.

Everyone has imperfections.

The moment you accept yourself will be the moment you can say that you are truly happy.

Happiness comes from the inside.

Don't change for anyone.

You're perfect as you are, with all your imperfections and as you may call it "bad habbits".

Someone will step into your life and love you for exactly these things.

Life is way too short to worry about things like that.

Be happy and enjoy every single second of your life.

You won't get these seconds back so make something out of it!

I hope everyone is having a great day and week (:

My "beauty" favourites.

Hello everyone!

Today I want to talk about a topic that is quite random or lets say rarely spoken about on here.

BUT

I'm a girl..duuh

And I do like that girly stuff...you know makeup and things like that.

So today I wanted to share my favourites with you.

Number #1: Perfumes

I got two perfumes for Christmas and I absolutely love them. On the left you can see the "Miss Dior, Blooming Bouquet" - by Dior and on the right the "Daisy" - by Marc Jacobs. I love both of them and wear them everyday. Both of them have this fresh and blooming smell...I mean obviously..ahaha
If you're searching for a everyday perfume then I would highly recommend these two (:

Number #2: Zoeva-Rose Golden Luxury Set

For years...literally years..I was waiting for this moment. I finally have the rose golden zoeva brush set! They came with the mail today! I was so happy and I have to say I'm not disappointed. I tried them out right after I took these pictures for you and they really are amazing. I just love them! The reason I waited so long to get them is because the price was always something I was kind of worrying about. I am not that kind of person who wants to spend 60€ on a brush set...but everyone was hyping these brushes so I had to get them and I really see why.

Number #3: KIKO - Eyeshadow Palette 

The other thing I couldn't resist to buy was the eyeshadow palette from KIKO with six eyeshadows. I bought six colours I knew I hadn't in my collection yet and I knew I would use. As you can see..I'm more of a nudy and peachy person. I like to use these as a base and then slowly build up a smoky eye with the brown tone :)

Number #4: Liz Earle Cleanse & Polish Hot Cloth Cleanser Starter Kit

The last thing I want to mention in this post is a face cleanser from Liz Earle.

One thing you have to know about me is that I am lazy.

I mean who's not.

Especially the girls will understand me when I say that it's just annoying to put the makeup off as it takes ages to get it really clean.

This is why I love this Hot Cloth Cleanser.

Here is how it works: You take two pumps of this Cleanser and start rubbing or massaging your face with it.

Then you take the Cloth that comes with the kit and put it under warm water...sweep it over your face and it will take all the makeup or dirt or whatever you got there on your face off..after that you just splash your face with cold water and voila, you're done!

Amazing I know :D

No more things to add to this, right?

So that's it what I've got for you today.

I'm sorry it really is different to the usual topics I talk about but I thought I'd just share these few things with you (:

Je suis Charlie? - Maybe.

Hey.

In the last few days shocking news went around the world.

As you all know, 

Islamists killed journalists who worked for the satire Charlie Hebdo.

These news are really sad and not acceptable in any way.

But isn't it weird that the media is hyping this so much?

What is with all the other people who are dying at the moment?

Whether its in Nigeria or thousands of people dying while trying to get over the sea.

As I said before, it is shocking that his happened but why is this so important in Germany?

It is amazing what the people in France are doing to honor these people.

But why is Germany starting to discuss about the islamization?

Every single week I read about demonstrations against the islamization in Germany.

There are two demonstrations here in Munich tonight..TWO?!

There is no islamization and you don't have to start worrying about the freedom of the press.

I'm sorry but this is just stupid.

People are demonstrating against asylum seekers and that we need to stop accomudating them...what?!

Germany is not allowed to be nationalistic because of the history, yeah I get that.

Believe me or not, alot of them are tho.

People need help.

Immigrant workers come to Germany because "we" don't have enough..oh and that's okay right?

This is so stupid.

We live in 2015.

2 0 1 5.

In a world where discrimination shouldn't be a thing anymore.

Yet there are so many people who think migrants are different to them.

We're all humans.

There are alot of people who won't go to these demonstrations but who still discriminate on a daily basis.

Why.

Why is it still harder for a e.g Turkisch man, to get an appartement than for a German...why?!

It's 2015 and the world still differantiate between skin colour, origin and sex.

It's ridiculous.

New year, new me?

Hello everyone (:

The beginning of the new year slowly becomes the past and everyone starts focussing on their daily life again.

One thing that I always remember from New Years Eve are the New Years resolutions.

A lot of people want the next year to be THE year.

The year of changes.

The year of results.

I am probably the worst at changing myself.

I'm being honest

I am the one who complains about a lot of things but I never change.

BUT

This time I want to see a change.

I want to change a lot of things.

I want to be a better person.

I say that often but I really want to try to go through my life happier!

Everyone should be happy about what they have

And I need to change my eating routine.

This is not really to lose weight I just want to be healthier.

I was always the person who had resolutions for the new year but I never really realized them.

In my eyes everyone is perfect as she or he is.

But I feel my motivation..I never had any before haha

I'm facing this new year positive.

Leave 2014 behind and look forward to new memories, new experiences and new people.

2015 will be awesome (:

I'm sorry.

If I could turn back time

to the day I've let you hanging.

I would've changed my decisions.

But I'm young,

forgive me I'm young

I make mistakes like everyone else.

I chose the wrong path.

The wrong side

And now I'm staring into darkness.

Facing the truth that I lost you.

Begging for a second try won't change a single thing.

It's too late for another try and 

I've realized that too late.

Saying sorry won't heal the scars.

Saying sorry won't bring back the lost time.

Saying sorry won't let you forget about the time I've let you hanging.

Regret will make you realize what you've lost.

I lost you.

Breaking into pieces because you realize the only thing that held you together is gone.

I lost you.

And now I'm standing here in the rain.

Feeling every raindrop on my broken skin.

Waiting for forgiveness.

Being patient might help.

But sometimes you know it won't.

I lost you.

Blogmas Day 21: Why we should start worrying about the world we're living in

Don't say anything.

I know I somehow managed to delete my last blogpost :(

But let's talk about something more important.

Let's face the truth.

It's the 21st of december..where's my snow?!

It is not even cold over here.

People were walking around without jackets two days ago..

By the way, I live in Germany so this is not normal haha

Everyone is happy about it and thankful that it's not freezing but

1. What's Christmas without snow

and

2. Am I the only one who's thinking about global warming instantly when the weather is playing up?

I am really worried.

I mean...this is not normal at all.

We're living in a world where thousands of people lost their lives because of natural disasters.

Everyone is warning us that because of the climate change more and more natural disasters will happen in the future.

Just take a look at this graphic.

It shows the change of temperature and the change of CO2..I'm sorry my english is definitely not ready for this explanation hahaha

But just look how much the CO2 grew.

Just compare 1900 with 2010 and it will grew further in the exponential way.

I don't really know where this post is going.

I'm just sharing my mind..the weird side of my mind.

I am really worried about these kind of things.

I mean I can't even change anything...am I the only one who worries about this?

I mean it's definitely not normal that it didn't snow yet.

I'm sorry if this post is not making any sense and you're sitting there laughing at me and thinking: oh silly little Bo! hahaha

Again, sorry that I accidently deleted my last blog post..whoops :S

Anyways..I hope everyone is enjoying the last days before Christmas :)

Blogmas Day 11: My plan about Interrail!

Hey!

I'm sorry for not posting the last few days but I wasn't feeling really well.

I'm not feeling well still but I wanted to post so I don't let anyone hanging..

Anyways.

Today I wanted to tell you about the plan I'm having with my best friend.

We want to travel through Europe with Interrail.

If you don't know what Interrail is, well it's basically working like this:

You can buy a ticket, there are different ones you can choose from.

You have One Country tickets and the Global tickets.

You can also choose for how many days you want to travel.

With these tickets, you can travel with a lot of trains.

Not every train but a lot of them.

And you can travel through 30 countries in Europe.

As we graduate next year, you normally go on vacation with your grade but as this would be a Party-trip to Greece and we both don't drink alcohol so we thought we'd make our own thing and travel through europe instead.

We want to travel through east europe because we think it's more interesting for us.

And it's cheaper haha

If anyone has any tips or opinions on this, it would really help (:

Blogmas Day 7: You don't know me

Hello you!

Today is day 7 of Blogmas and I want to tell you some things about me.

Just so you get to know me better..

Isn't that important? 

1. I'm a very opened person...obviously -_-

2. My name is Bozana but no one in Germany can pronounce it so they came up with calling me Bobi

3. I play the violin for 7 years now

4. I started playing a croatian instrument called Tamburica this year

5. ..by the way, my parents are both from Croatia

6. I was born in Germany, Munich

7. I sing whenever my parents aren't at home...I can't sing in front of them I don't really know why

8. I can get very moody over little things

9. Disney films and Capri sun make me happy

10. I love Christmas..duhh

11. I can speak Croatian, German, English and French

12. I hate French

13. When I eat sugar, I instantly get hyperactive and super happy

14. I am obsessed with penguins

15. I used to play volleyball but quit this year because we moved house

16. This is my favourite number

I hope you enjoyed this..weird post.

I don't really know what to think about this but oh well..

Here's a picture of a random cute little boy cuddling his dog instead

So cute.

Have a nice day everyone (:

Blogmas Day 6: Don't have wishes. Have plans.

Hey you little cheeky fella'

How you doin'?

It is the time of the year to start think about the wishes for 2015.

The standard wishes are probably to

To lose weight.

To be better at school.

To get a boyfriend/girlfriend hahaha

But I am here.

Now.

To write history!

We!! 

Yes we...will make a change.

Spoiler alarm...the title of the post already told you what I want to say.

No wishes.

We will make plans for next year.

You know I am graduating next year and it was always my dream to travel.

And now me and my bestfriend want to travel through Europe for one month.

It was always my dream and my wish to go study media design.

Now? It is my plan to start uni next year in October.

What I am trying to tell you is that you never give up on your dreams or wishes.

They will happen if you work hard and keep going.

Make plans.

I am here today on the 6th of december and I am telling you this one thing.

Let 2015 be the year where our dreams come true.

Blogmas Day 5: My Christmas story

Hello everyone :)

First things first...there are a few reasons why I didn't post yesterday

<> I had to go to see some doctors and had a check on my blood

<>  I don't like the number 4.

<> Why 4th if you can have the 5th

<> I'm a rebel

...I'm a rebel contains 4 words.

I am a rebel.

I chose to write it as I'm a rebel so there are only three words, that's how much I don't like that number.

...you can tell I've had sugar, right?

Anyways lets move on to the actual topic..I mean I can talk further about numbers and relate it to life if you want to? - ...No?..oh ok..

So I want to tell you about my Christmas and how it usually looks like since I have two kinds of celebrating it with two family parts obviously.

My mothers family lives in Croatia so we sometimes go there to celebrate Christmas with them.

In croatia, the children normally don't get any presents because you celebrate it with the old traditions.

On the 24th, some people decide (like my family and I) to go through the houses and celebrate with everyone.

Since it's a small town and you know everyone, it is alright to do that...I wouldn't do that with strangers. But yeah so we go through the houses, sit there for a few minutes and just talk and wish them a Merry Christmas eve.

I love that kind of Christmas because people there celebrate it for the real reasons of it.

One thing I don't enjoy that much is that there is alot of snow.

By alot I mean alot.

We literally get stuck in there.

My uncle ends up searching for his car since it gets 2-3 meters high..

oh well haha

The second way of celebrating my Christmas is with my fathers family.

Half of it is living in Hamburg, which is in Germany and the other half in Croatia.

We celebrate it in Hamburg, actually more often than we celebrate it in Croatia.

I have a better connection to my family here in Germany since we see each other more often.

We all go on summer holiday together in Croatia and all that.

What I love here is that we always go out and do stuff.

So we don't sit at home.

We make the best time out of the little amount we have.

For example.

It kind of got a tradition to go bowling..and to go to the cinema and ice skating.

And we sit down and look at all the old pictures and watch old videos.

We have aaaloooot of them and this is just amazing.

Also..I love Hamburg.

It is definitely my favourite city.

BUT

This year it'll be different.

Since we moved house, everyone from Hamburg will come here to Munich to celebrate with us.

The last time I celebrated Christmas was when I was 4-6 years old I think.

I can't really remember.

So yeah I can't wait for celebrating christmas with 13 other people in one house..

oh god that will be stressy.

And messy.

Anyways I hope you're having a great time :)

Blogmas Day 3: The poem that changed my life

Hello!

Today, I want to share an amazing poem.

This poem is my favourite and it really changed my life.

Whenever I read it, it gets me.

Every single time.

It's called Invictus and it's written by William Ernest Henley.

The first time I heard about that poem was when I watched the movie called "Invictus".

It's about Nelson Mandela's life and how he made it through 27 years of being in jail and how he achieved building up a kind of friendship between the two sides of South Africa.

This movie is amazing.

I absolutely love it.

You should definitely watch it.

Back to the poem.

This poem hits my emotional side every single time.

I think what Mandela said in the movie is that this poem gave him strength to go through jail and this hard time.

And reading this poem gives me strength.

Whenever I feel sad or down I read it.

And it does make me feel stronger.

It's not just the poem.

It's also the story about Mandela.

He is one of the people who did so much for this world.

He made a change.

And he was strong enough to get through all of it.

My favourite line in this poem is 

"I thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul"

I mean the whole poem is just amazing.

I don't know,,maybe it's just me.

But I really wanted to share this.

In case if you're having a bad or hard time.

I hope it helps you as much as it helped me :)

Blogmas Day 2: I regret my actions, minds and words.

Hello :)

It's the second Day of Decembeeer whoop whoooop!

Today's topic is something that I think about a lot.

Sometimes..it happens quite often actually,

I start thinking about myself and the way I am living my life.

And then I end up asking myself the same questions every single time...

Am I happy with my life?

Am I happy with myself?

Don't get me wrong I am not talking about my weight or my style or anything related to that.

I am talking about myself as a person.

I have people in my life who can make me instantly happy just by looking at them and they've done so much for me.

I could never give them any of their love and happiness back.

I really want to be a happy and positive person and I do force myself to stay positive.

But I feel like I am not ...do you know what I mean?

Ugh it's hard to explain...this is not supposed to be a sad post

the time around Christmas just makes me really happy and...sentimental I guess?

I just want to give everyone the happiness back that I am getting every single day.

I want to be the person who can make someone's day.

I want to help.

I just want to be a good human.

Knowing that I did everything right in my life.

And I have to admit..until now I really regret a lot of things.

A lot of spoken words when I had my mood swings.

I feel really bad about it.

I want to change my attitude.

My way of living.

My way of seeing life.

I want to be happy.

But the most important..

I want to be the reason why other people are happy.

Blogmas Day 1: Is Christmas lost?

Hello everyone!

Sorry but I'm not in a really good mood today.
Eventhough it's the first of december...24 days left...then it's Christmas..

Nevermind about the mood thing OH MY GOD I CAN'T WAIT!!!

Anyways by the title of this post...my Blogmas is kind of starting in a negative thing..HA that's what you think!

Goot yaaa :D

Anyways.
Let me tell you a little christmas story.

On Friday I was sitting in my English class as always when Christmas suddenly came to my mind!
And of course...you know my by now...I had to share my mind with everyone again.

I can tell you that my teacher was really excited for it but the others...
Well there were some people who said they hate Christmas...they HATE it.

Can you believe that?
Then I asked them why to prove that their opinion was not invalid and I have to admit I understood them,

They said that nowadays...the Christmas spirit is lost.
The real reason why people celebrate Christmas...and I have to agree.
Everything that is going on is Christmas shopping...and okay I like giving presents to my family but this is not the real reason for Christmas.

You know my parents are from Croatia and this country is really religious..I mean I go to church every Sunday and about Christmas time I go there everyday.

So in my family the real reason for Christmas is not gone at all..of course we give each other presents but this is not so important..take me for an example
I don't even want to get any presents...okay I'm hoping for a smoothie maker this year...can you blame me for that?
C'mon a Smoothie-maker!! Amazing.

So in my eyes you can't really enjoy Christmas without having the real reason for it in your mind.
Don't expect presents or any other things.
Share your happiness and just enjoy being around your family and be thankful for everything you have.

Tell the people you love them.
It will make their day!
Trust me :)

I hope this was a nice start in december...and see it wasn't that negative!

See you tomorrow (:

Next month will be awesome!

Hey everyone!

I know today should be taking over Saturday…

BUT I’M SO EXCITED

Next month is Christmas!!!!

And I decided to be a part of Blogmas!

Yes that’s right.

I want to share my excitement with you!
I LOVE CHRISTMAS.

I’m not that kind of person who wants a lot of presents, I love Christmas for these sentimental reasons.

The whole city decorated with all these beautiful lights.
The feeling from coming into the warm house after being outside in the cold

The Christmas tree and all the Christmas cookies..oh the cookies! Mmmhm

I.CAN’T.WAIT.

I hope I made you as excited as I am!

P.S this will be my first Blogmas so be gentle with me!

Being thankful for such a great childhood

Today, I want to share some of my memories of my childhood.

I am so thankful for it and I can say I enjoyed every second of it.

I am happy that I was born before all the technology took over.

I played outside everyday with my older brother and we just imagined stuff and built treehouses..on the ground…obviously cause we were little and had no idea what we were doing but anyways haha

I love thinking back to the old times and especially looking at the old pictures.

There are sooo many videos and pictures of me and my older brother (like this one) and my cousins.

I feel really sorry for all the kids who have to grow up with smartphones and tablets and all that stuff.

It actually is important to get dirty as a child, I’m not even kidding.

It helps your imune system to get stronger…I learnt that in biology so yeah don’t question it. 

And you can’t get dirty from sitting at home playing video games all day..duuuhhh

Here a picture of me pretending I knew how to bake haha

One story I love to hear over and over again..well there are alooot of stories I love to listen to.

But I have two favourites.

One of them was at Christmas time and My dad had a motorbike back then.

He took my brothers, my cousins and my slide and tied it to his motorbike and drove us through the snow.

I remember this and it was amazing.

The other story was in summer at our Holidays in Croatia.

We were at the beach and my parents still don’t know how that happened but basically my older brother, my cousin and me gone for a walk around the beach and…well we came back with a goat.

A GOAT.

No one knows where we got it from and how we got it to come with us but yeah..hahaha

I love thinking back.

Amazing memories and I am so thankful for my parents and family taking all these pictures and literally walking around with a camcorder recording every single second.

 

Fighting for my dream

Bonjour everyone!

If you remember last weeks post, you'll know what I will talk about today...you don't remember?

No worries.

Read it now....Go. I'll wait....

...

Done it? Good.

In my blogpost about Catching my dreams, I was talking about my dreams and last week I said that I wasn't getting any support for my dream either.

I kept fighting.

I still am.

But before I tell you about it, I want to show you an update on my drawings.

Hope you enjoy :)

There you go, I am still drawing..by the way the last one is not finished yet.

And with every drawing I am showing my parents that this will be my future.

I started working to save money for the uni so they see that I really mean it.

I am not giving up.

I really think that my parents finally understood that this is what I really want.

Of course they're not that happy with my decision but like I showed them how bad I really want this, 

I will show them how good I will be at my job as a Media-Designer.

I am not giving up.

If I have to fight until the day I am sitting in the University then so be it.

But I won't give up.

If I know one thing, then that fighting for this is a hundred percent worth it.

Getting no support is the best motivation to keep going.

Trust me.