A reason to cry helped me out of my depression

Hey

If you followed my last weeks posts you know that i fell into a kind of depression.
And I didn't know how to get out of it.

But something happened last week.
I don't know if it's right to tell you about this but since it's "Life with me", I think I'll have to share it.
So a few weeks ago, one of my favourite teachers had an epileptic applicable...well that's what everyone thought.
He got into hospital and they found brain hemorrhages.
Last week the tests from the laboratory came back.
He has a brain tumor.

They can't operate him so he'll start with the chemotherapy on Monday.

When I came home my mother asked me how my school day was and I started crying after I failed in telling her about my teacher.

I cried alot that day.
My brother was his favourite student and after I told him he started crying aswell.

The next two days I think, have been worse than the days where I got into the depression but I soon felt better because I actually had a reason to cry.
I had a reason to be sad.

When I fell into the depression I was sad and cried because of my life in general.
And of course you don't know how to get out of it because you don't know what you'd have to change to make it better again.

But now that I had a reason to be sad, I could finally start doing something to make it better again.

I bought some kind of book where every student could write some nice things in to show him our support.
We also talked alot about another present to get him.

So yeah these sad news got me out of my depression.
Don't get me wrong I am still sad about this but I finally know why I'm sad.

Depressions suck

Hey.

I'm not really in the mood to write a blogpost, sure you can tell why by the title of this post.

I really can't tell if this is just a heavier mood swing or really a depression.

I can tell that writing about this is not that easy for me right now.

Normally when I write about these topics, I'm not currently going through them. 

I try to help people.

But sometimes it all gets too much.

And you get no help.

You automatically feel alone and no one surround you realizes it.

What does it feel like to go through this?

This describes it pretty good.

I lost all the energy to even do things and i'm forcing myself to write this post.

I don't want to be like this.

I didn't choose to be like this.

I made a research about depression and the symptoms:

• Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
• Fatigue and decreased energy
• Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
• Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
• Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
• Irritability, restlessness
• Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
• Overeating or appetite loss
• Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
• Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
• Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts

The article also said that depression can come and go or last for a longer period of time.

How to get out of it?

I don't know.

I really don't.

I guess I have to wait.

Force myself to stand up every morning and live my life further.

Do the things I used to enjoy and not stop with it because I think it will make it worse.

If anyone is going through the same as me at the moment.

Holla Sister, i guess. You're not alone.

How to: Be more self-confident

HELLOOOO OCTOBER!
oh and hey everyone!

Today I want to help you.
Yes you.
I want to make you more confident with yourself.

Now I'm a person who normally is really self-confident but sometimes I get these moods where I hate everything about me.

So what do I do to get me out of these moods to feel self-confident again?

Step one: find a mirror

Step two: look into the mirror

Step three: focus on the positive things about you.

Now step three is the important step...okay I mean if you can't find a mirror then step three won't work either but you know what I mean haha

I want you to stand in front of the mirror and just look at yourself.

Look at yourself and feel free to be happy about some parts of your body.

Take me as an example:

Whenever I feel down because of my weight...yeah that happens sometimes and ten minutes later I sit down eating chocolate cause I was doing the mirror thing..anyways back to the point:

So whenever I feel down and I look into the mirror, I focus on the things I like about myself.

For example, I like my eyes.

So I focus on them..which can be creepy if you're standing in front of the mirror and staring into your own eyes like you're trying to creep the other person out..

It doesnt matter what you like about yourself, whether it's your eyes, your nose, your ears..there are some people with nice ears so why not haha
Or your hands, if you have nice hands then I'm happy for you!

What I'm trying to tell you in this chaos of letters is that you should stop focusing on the negative things about yourself.

Nobody is perfect.
Everyone has imperfections and that is good.

It would be so boring if everyone was perfect.

People make mistakes.
Just because you make mistakes, it doesn't mean that you're not allowed to be self-confident anymore.
Just because you like some parts of your body, it doesn't make you an arrogant person.

I'm a person who thinks that other people automatically focus on the negative things about myself, like I do.
But that's not true.
I've met so many people who were shy at the beginning and after a while they told me they hated their body or whatever...I don't know if I'm the only one here but I don't care about these things on others at all.

I don't focus on others imperfections.
I apreciate the positive things about them.

And if you learn to see it that way, the way that everyone in this world is walking around with imperfections..then I hope you will stop focusing on yours because you don't care about theirs either, am I right?

I hope I helped you a little bit...if not then tell me so I can just try it again.
Maybe the mirror thing only works for me, who knows

Anyways!

I wish you great start in October :) x