Blogmas Day 2: I regret my actions, minds and words.

Hello :)

It's the second Day of Decembeeer whoop whoooop!

Today's topic is something that I think about a lot.

Sometimes..it happens quite often actually,

I start thinking about myself and the way I am living my life.

And then I end up asking myself the same questions every single time...

Am I happy with my life?

Am I happy with myself?

Don't get me wrong I am not talking about my weight or my style or anything related to that.

I am talking about myself as a person.

I have people in my life who can make me instantly happy just by looking at them and they've done so much for me.

I could never give them any of their love and happiness back.

I really want to be a happy and positive person and I do force myself to stay positive.

But I feel like I am not ...do you know what I mean?

Ugh it's hard to explain...this is not supposed to be a sad post

the time around Christmas just makes me really happy and...sentimental I guess?

I just want to give everyone the happiness back that I am getting every single day.

I want to be the person who can make someone's day.

I want to help.

I just want to be a good human.

Knowing that I did everything right in my life.

And I have to admit..until now I really regret a lot of things.

A lot of spoken words when I had my mood swings.

I feel really bad about it.

I want to change my attitude.

My way of living.

My way of seeing life.

I want to be happy.

But the most important..

I want to be the reason why other people are happy.