Being thankful for such a great childhood

Today, I want to share some of my memories of my childhood.

I am so thankful for it and I can say I enjoyed every second of it.

I am happy that I was born before all the technology took over.

I played outside everyday with my older brother and we just imagined stuff and built treehouses..on the ground…obviously cause we were little and had no idea what we were doing but anyways haha

I love thinking back to the old times and especially looking at the old pictures.

There are sooo many videos and pictures of me and my older brother (like this one) and my cousins.

I feel really sorry for all the kids who have to grow up with smartphones and tablets and all that stuff.

It actually is important to get dirty as a child, I’m not even kidding.

It helps your imune system to get stronger…I learnt that in biology so yeah don’t question it. 

And you can’t get dirty from sitting at home playing video games all day..duuuhhh

Here a picture of me pretending I knew how to bake haha

One story I love to hear over and over again..well there are alooot of stories I love to listen to.

But I have two favourites.

One of them was at Christmas time and My dad had a motorbike back then.

He took my brothers, my cousins and my slide and tied it to his motorbike and drove us through the snow.

I remember this and it was amazing.

The other story was in summer at our Holidays in Croatia.

We were at the beach and my parents still don’t know how that happened but basically my older brother, my cousin and me gone for a walk around the beach and…well we came back with a goat.

A GOAT.

No one knows where we got it from and how we got it to come with us but yeah..hahaha

I love thinking back.

Amazing memories and I am so thankful for my parents and family taking all these pictures and literally walking around with a camcorder recording every single second.

 

Fighting for my dream

Bonjour everyone!

If you remember last weeks post, you'll know what I will talk about today...you don't remember?

No worries.

Read it now....Go. I'll wait....

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Done it? Good.

In my blogpost about Catching my dreams, I was talking about my dreams and last week I said that I wasn't getting any support for my dream either.

I kept fighting.

I still am.

But before I tell you about it, I want to show you an update on my drawings.

Hope you enjoy :)

There you go, I am still drawing..by the way the last one is not finished yet.

And with every drawing I am showing my parents that this will be my future.

I started working to save money for the uni so they see that I really mean it.

I am not giving up.

I really think that my parents finally understood that this is what I really want.

Of course they're not that happy with my decision but like I showed them how bad I really want this, 

I will show them how good I will be at my job as a Media-Designer.

I am not giving up.

If I have to fight until the day I am sitting in the University then so be it.

But I won't give up.

If I know one thing, then that fighting for this is a hundred percent worth it.

Getting no support is the best motivation to keep going.

Trust me.

Don't you ever give up on your dreams!

Haaaaaiiiii you!

How are you? Good! I'm fine thanks :D

Today's post is about something that means a lot to me.

Because I know how it feels to get no support.

Back then when I started my blog I had two posts who are kind of related to this one.

The post about Catching my dreams and How to: Be happy!

But today...I really want and need to tell you something.

You're awesome.

Yes you are.

No matter what others say, you always been and you always will be.

I still have the same dream.

I want to be a media designer.

And I never had my parents support...but did I give up? - No.

I was fighting and I still am.

I am telling you that it is a 1000% worth it to fight for your dreams, even if it seems impossible.

The moment you stop dreaming, is the moment you lost.

Don't ever quit doing what you love or fighting for it just because someone doesn't support you with it.

I know what I am talking about.

My partents, the people who had the most influence on my life didn't support me.

But I proved them wrong.

I showed them that I totally mean and want it.

And now?

Did it help?

You'll know that next week (:

How to: Know you're living a good life

Hellooo...first I want to apologize for not posting last week but I've not been able to as I was kind of really ill haha 

BUT 

I'm okay again so here's today's post!

Now to understand this post I think I have to explain how this topic even came to my mind.
I'm 17 years old and I've never been a person who drank alcohol,smoke or went to parties.
I just don't like that.

I do have friends who do all that stuff tho.
And there was a time where they kept telling me that I don't live my life right and that I'm wasting my youth.

Why am I suppose to go to parties and drink because I'm young?
Is this their definition of a good life?

Well it's obviously not mine.
In my eyes, and I can say that's only how I think, it's important to look and maybe live for the future.
I study a lot and I draw because I want to get to my dream university.
Get my dream job.

You know, I don't have to party and drink and go out if I know that my future will make me happy.

Plus.

I think you know that you're living a good life as a good person if you know you've helped other people or made their life happier and easier.

You can't have the definition of a good life in saying that you're enjoying every second with partying but not helping any others.

That's just not right in my eyes.

I mean you don't have to be mother Theresa now don't get me wrong.
But helping your parents now and then or old people if they do.

Walk around with a smile and just be nice to each other.
You have no idea how much a little smile can affect someone's day.


I don't know if my definition of a good life is right but this is how I see it.


I hope I didn't offend anyone with this haha
Have a nice day (:

A reason to cry helped me out of my depression

Hey

If you followed my last weeks posts you know that i fell into a kind of depression.
And I didn't know how to get out of it.

But something happened last week.
I don't know if it's right to tell you about this but since it's "Life with me", I think I'll have to share it.
So a few weeks ago, one of my favourite teachers had an epileptic applicable...well that's what everyone thought.
He got into hospital and they found brain hemorrhages.
Last week the tests from the laboratory came back.
He has a brain tumor.

They can't operate him so he'll start with the chemotherapy on Monday.

When I came home my mother asked me how my school day was and I started crying after I failed in telling her about my teacher.

I cried alot that day.
My brother was his favourite student and after I told him he started crying aswell.

The next two days I think, have been worse than the days where I got into the depression but I soon felt better because I actually had a reason to cry.
I had a reason to be sad.

When I fell into the depression I was sad and cried because of my life in general.
And of course you don't know how to get out of it because you don't know what you'd have to change to make it better again.

But now that I had a reason to be sad, I could finally start doing something to make it better again.

I bought some kind of book where every student could write some nice things in to show him our support.
We also talked alot about another present to get him.

So yeah these sad news got me out of my depression.
Don't get me wrong I am still sad about this but I finally know why I'm sad.

Depressions suck

Hey.

I'm not really in the mood to write a blogpost, sure you can tell why by the title of this post.

I really can't tell if this is just a heavier mood swing or really a depression.

I can tell that writing about this is not that easy for me right now.

Normally when I write about these topics, I'm not currently going through them. 

I try to help people.

But sometimes it all gets too much.

And you get no help.

You automatically feel alone and no one surround you realizes it.

What does it feel like to go through this?

This describes it pretty good.

I lost all the energy to even do things and i'm forcing myself to write this post.

I don't want to be like this.

I didn't choose to be like this.

I made a research about depression and the symptoms:

• Difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
• Fatigue and decreased energy
• Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
• Feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
• Insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
• Irritability, restlessness
• Loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
• Overeating or appetite loss
• Persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
• Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
• Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts

The article also said that depression can come and go or last for a longer period of time.

How to get out of it?

I don't know.

I really don't.

I guess I have to wait.

Force myself to stand up every morning and live my life further.

Do the things I used to enjoy and not stop with it because I think it will make it worse.

If anyone is going through the same as me at the moment.

Holla Sister, i guess. You're not alone.

How to: Be more self-confident

HELLOOOO OCTOBER!
oh and hey everyone!

Today I want to help you.
Yes you.
I want to make you more confident with yourself.

Now I'm a person who normally is really self-confident but sometimes I get these moods where I hate everything about me.

So what do I do to get me out of these moods to feel self-confident again?

Step one: find a mirror

Step two: look into the mirror

Step three: focus on the positive things about you.

Now step three is the important step...okay I mean if you can't find a mirror then step three won't work either but you know what I mean haha

I want you to stand in front of the mirror and just look at yourself.

Look at yourself and feel free to be happy about some parts of your body.

Take me as an example:

Whenever I feel down because of my weight...yeah that happens sometimes and ten minutes later I sit down eating chocolate cause I was doing the mirror thing..anyways back to the point:

So whenever I feel down and I look into the mirror, I focus on the things I like about myself.

For example, I like my eyes.

So I focus on them..which can be creepy if you're standing in front of the mirror and staring into your own eyes like you're trying to creep the other person out..

It doesnt matter what you like about yourself, whether it's your eyes, your nose, your ears..there are some people with nice ears so why not haha
Or your hands, if you have nice hands then I'm happy for you!

What I'm trying to tell you in this chaos of letters is that you should stop focusing on the negative things about yourself.

Nobody is perfect.
Everyone has imperfections and that is good.

It would be so boring if everyone was perfect.

People make mistakes.
Just because you make mistakes, it doesn't mean that you're not allowed to be self-confident anymore.
Just because you like some parts of your body, it doesn't make you an arrogant person.

I'm a person who thinks that other people automatically focus on the negative things about myself, like I do.
But that's not true.
I've met so many people who were shy at the beginning and after a while they told me they hated their body or whatever...I don't know if I'm the only one here but I don't care about these things on others at all.

I don't focus on others imperfections.
I apreciate the positive things about them.

And if you learn to see it that way, the way that everyone in this world is walking around with imperfections..then I hope you will stop focusing on yours because you don't care about theirs either, am I right?

I hope I helped you a little bit...if not then tell me so I can just try it again.
Maybe the mirror thing only works for me, who knows

Anyways!

I wish you great start in October :) x